In that quietness, I finally feel grace in my heart.. In those moments, it’s as though the Divine wraps its loving arms around me, showing mercy on my painful heart and blesses me with a moments peace amidst my despair. My faith renewed. Saturday May 19 @ 04:03pmIf you’ve been up all night and cried till you have no more tears left in you… you will know that there comes in the end a sort of quietness. You feel as if nothing was ever going to happen again.
~ C.S. Lewis
Saturday May 19 @ 03:53pmIf you’ve been up all night and cried till you have no more tears left in you… you will know that there comes in the end a sort of quietness. You feel as if nothing was ever going to happen again.
~ C.S. Lewis
No matter what kind of day I’m having.. There is something about walking through the door at Barnes & Noble that makes my heart smile. To me there is much beauty, comfort and peace that come with old fashion books. I don’t look down on those who own the new electronic versions, I have a kindle app on my phone as well. But there’s something about hold an actual book. Smelling the pages. Seeing it on the shelf and remembering the great lessons I learned from it..
I’m scared to death that some day archeologists are gonna unearth our layer of history and find nothing but a bunch if dusty old computers. No real record of us existing beside some now alien form of technology. Maybe I’m old fashion. But I’d rather read an ancient text printed on leaves than stare at a screen.
All the inspirational love advice that seems so cut and dry obviously has it’s place and serves a purpose but when taken for what it is it’s easy to see life just isn’t that simple and love is definitely much more complex.
There has to be a certain amount of give and take in a relationship to…
Fascinating concept.
I am in one of those relationships that from the outside makes people gag. I can’t talk about J without getting all smiley and giddy. We celebrated our year anniversary last week and I can honestly say without a doubt that I’ve found my soulmate.
But truth be told I know this is only only because of the pain we’ve been through. We’ve faced addictions, my lupus, jealous rages, my mothers breast cancer, intense fighting, but also the most intense loving you could imagine.
True love, soul mate relationships whatever the fuck you wanna call it isn’t all hunky dory never have a bad day again, happilyeverafter bullshit.
True love rips you apart. It smacks you in the face with it’s honesty, scares the shit outta you and shows you the depths of the shadows of who you are. True love no longer allows you to pretend everything’s wonderful, it makes you see the hidden darkness of your soul and then brings it to light. It rips open your guts for another to see and leaves you standing naked and vulnerable in front of the other scared shitless.
But then you look in their eyes.. and they, fully seeing all the darkness of you, look at you like you’re the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen. And that level of unconditional acceptance changes your whole world. It’s lifts your soul up to heights you never imagined it could fly, and you accomplish things spiritually that you never knew you could.
True love tears you down, and then gives you the boost you need to build yourself back up.. The way you’re meant to be. I’ve grown more spiritually in the past year then I had in the 26 prior. And I am completely head over heels in love with dark side of a truly amazing man. He isn’t perfect, and I’ll never be perfect, but together.. We fit perfectly.
And that’s truth.
Mugshot Monday.
Bored. As. Shit.
It just started raining, right in time for my lunch, so now I’m stuck in the back room with nothing to do but troll some social networks. You know you have a truly boring job when having to go to lunch actually disrupts your quality internet surfing time. Damn good thing that I have an insatiable thirst for knowledge (about pretty much ANY random topic I can come up with) and the Internet has so many wonderful places to fulfill this or I’d have a serious end of workday drinking problem.
If you need a friend, I’m sailing right behind.. Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind. (Taken with instagram)
Friday May 11 @ 08:48pmThat while we spend our lives fearing change.. We aren’t realizing that quite often it is the LACK of change in our lives which makes us unhappiest.
For the whole nature of our existence is, in fact, evolution.
Whoa. Where is this shit coming from tonight?!
Thursday May 10 @ 10:51pm